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listen, you must keep a lid on what you know, continue on as if you never said anything, research while you "hide" i knew for a long time, but I had to wait because i became a victim and spent many years in and out of prison for a crime i did not commit, during that time i was unable to tell anyone, no way to contact my beloved congregation, when finally i came out i was homeless, but i made the meetings sporadically, they knew i lived outside in squalor, and i found out that they had been gossiping about me. no one would help me, because of course, i could not attend meetings for so long, i was looked down on and even run out of the memorial because they knew i was gonna partake, i have done so since 1987. well i was forced to sleep in shelters in winter because of the snow, i was forced to go into churches, because the Jw's would not help me , and what i saw and heard and felt were people who were feeding me because of Jesus, everyone knew the name of Jehovah and sang songs to him, i partook in a catholic church because i had no where else to go{eww btw very gross} so when i was able i finally went to the meetings for three months straight and after the first meeting, i was not allowed to even read a scripture and then the elders visited me, in my home and accused me of being violent{ my crime was a violent one, never mind that i am innocent, but they believed that i should not partake and so i was dissed because i refused to stop, and i cannot be brought back in, because of my refusal.- this is the org i spent almost all my adult life in- a cult. I am 53 and still The bride of Christ.- I partake at home and still use jw.org, and i read chapter 34 of Ezekiel and encourage all ex-jws to read it for God knew what was gonna happen back then and in the future, God was with me, and still is, otherwise i would be dead, i have died doa on 5 occaisions, and knew that God would raise me up again and again, for His Glory, not mine.Hallelujah- song of solomon 8:6- my left hand tattoo-Jah His name on my skin, no one can strip him off of me.I am never alone and jesus speaks for me, even now, because i got to the point i cold no longer live or speak to humans after what the world was allowed to do to me, worthless, homeless naked and in despair, sleeping and crying in blood and feces and urine and squalid conditions, he picked me up, and began ministering to me, and continues even now until forever, my King holds me Dear my beloved beloved is always here, the shadow on the back of my right hand.Take my advice try to fade slowly it is the best thing to do.