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I live in a group home, and i pay 3,177 for the priviledge of being neglected and abused, and the food i have absolutely no say in the matter. this is what happens when you are injured and have to try to live with it. I am on oxygen and i have a motorized wheelchair and all the homes are like this. they expect me to walk to the toilet, in the day time. I am in pain and they are just fucking lazy bastards who do this for the money. I keepasking god to let the 95 year old man to die, they leave him in bed, and he cannot see or hear berywell so he talks to none begging for help constantly, i told them i cannot handle that because i myself am a caregiver, and he keps begging please someone help me, my legs hurt and etc... , whatever you do, dont wind up here i am 53 years old and all the homes are like this. trust me, i was a ray of hope when i gave care, but once you are in a wheelchair, no one understands , everyone treats you as if your mentally retarded, these fuckers are fuckin lazy. they dont ant to clean my bedside commode, and the toilet keeps getting stopped up and i have to sit there and plunge it till it is gone, because i dont use a lot of paper, but they think i do, 4 squares is too much. Fuck them.you cannot demand anything or they simply give you a thirty day notice and get meaner while you wait a year to find another home that treats you exactly the same brutally honest, i used to work in the homes and they all treat you like a retard and if you call police they think your mental, which btw is exactly why i am here it is not the oxygen, it is not the Multiple scherosis, it is not the wheelchair, it is becuase i am considered to mentally ill to care for myself, soo...there it is.. if you send me out the door with my meds, i will do what any person who needs care but is in so much pain they dont want to suffer anymore, i would take all of my meds and try to hide somewhere to die so that they dont catch me, and that is with knowing for a fact that God and his son are taking care of me, god wont let me die, damnit,and i promised him i wont do it again...so there it is.