my friend pandura---I'm very grief striken by churches & even some dear friends on fb who persistently enforce their convictionsSTOP Already abt how WRONG I am & how God's spirit isn't with me & how i need to come to JESUS I AM SICK OF PPL demanding I DON'T KNOW JESUS - as if I'm retarded - All bcause i DON'T WORSHIP HIM AS GODI'm VERY DEPRESSED to the point of NO RETURN- constant bashing & All bcause YUR viewpoint HAS TO BE RIGHTEOUSLY PROVENi have to deal w great lonliness, my child is a survivor of horrific crimes from HIS OWN FATHER-
which the JW'S LOVED & felt sorry for HIM b cause I wouldnt stop partakin of emblems & bein such an embarrassment to everyone -
I'm out here risking my life haulin freight making WAY TOO LITTLE MONEY - But there's NOTHING at home but emptiness & a Dangerous pedophile who stalks & breaks into our home whenever he chooses & protection orders Are worthless.
The ENTIRE JUDICIAL SYSTEM
In Lauderdale Co. Ala. & Clay Co. Ark- pretend he Never existed
Wat has ANY religion ever done except lollygag & pretend the world is perfect if yu go to THEIR CHURCH & JUST BELIEVE
Dont cut yur hair, don't wear pants, u HAVE TO believe in HELLFIRE & TRINITY
while bashing & pushing others to the very end of their spiritual endeavors
I'm a CULT survivor- but not doing well anymore all i have is my son keeping me inspired to provide for & protect - w the lack of justice & his devilish threats to assisinate - i can barely do thatGOD I'M IN TEARS CRYING FOR SOME FRIENDS OUT THERE I'M WAY TOO SAD ME>>>[Dearest SISTER, I TOO WAS PUT OUT FOR PARTAKING. WE KNOW, THAT THIS VAGABOND LIFE IS BECAUSE SATAN HATES US SO MUCH, HE WANTS TO TURN US AWAY-but we know he cannot. You and i have everything in common. everything. I lost all 5 of my children due to the fact that satan was attacking me. I understand how you feel, and it is because we are the chosen ones that we suffer this way. Chapter 34 of ezekiel should help you 100 percent and there is a scripture that we live and this turmoil is caused by satan himself. Jehovah is not far from us ever. The christ is doing everything for us, Lean on the shoulder of the almighty mighty Son of God, be courageous .Psalms 42: 3 "To me my tears have become food day and night, While [they]* say to me all day long:{ “Where is your God?” }since we live in a world controlled by satan, this is what he does, strips you of all money, that is his money, if God did not help us we would have no money, , no friends ,no children, no clothes no food no shelter. This is certainly not the real life The cops beat me, my husband beat me, my own mother, beat me, they stole all my money and i sit here having suicidal thoughts all the day lone. But I know who is responsible...and God is my only comfort . You are doing what is right and the entire world is against us. Have some respect for yourself...we must talk to ourselves and make reply sweet and kind and gentle, for no one in this world can give you the voice you long to hear and yet he is right there with you...talk to Jesus , how else will he give us counsel? of course we do not worship him, but talking to him, giving him voice to ourselves, instead of saying" Man that was just so stupid of me" instead let the father counsel you. Say to your self, you are not stupid, just young, you will learn . Don't worry sweetheart, i am right here with you. When you start doing that, the way he helps others through your words and actions, he will make it known, that it is him speaking to you. Who else would comfort us? He has to carry us around, because if he did not, we would lie on the floor and die.Believe me, i know exactly how it feels, but remember when anyone speaks wickedly to you, turn and walk away.It is because we are one with god, that satan makes people like my mom, my husbands, beat me mistreat me, and the cops are definitely not on your side.It is satan's world , but i know how to deal with it, all of my personal information is true, call , me or send me an email.I am always on your side, and no one realizes they are being used, They don't know what they are doing.]
my husnand told me that his life is not connected to mine. I did not know hw to get to the apt, that i rented for me and the kids, but when he decided to come and stay anyway, i left and came back to visit and he said if i did not have sex with him then no more visits. I have been afraid of the cops, if i called them they would have wondered why i couldn't remember how to get there,I am autistic, nobody understands me
after waiting over ten years, three denials and then my lawyer got more than i did, and my sister helped herself to my ssi money, made me sick to near death, and then wound up on the street with nothing. they always deny ssi 3 times hoping you will die before they have to pay out.aND NO ONE ON THIS PLANET HELPED ME, I GOT HELPED BY THE SPIRIT THAT KICKED ME IN THE SIDE. MY SIDEKICK,HE WAS ALLOWED TO HELP ME, BECAUSE GOD WAS GOING TO SEND A MESSAGE TO THE ONE WE KNOW AS THE RESISTER, THATS RIGHT A DEMON PICKED ME UP, BECAUSE HE COULD NOT STAND WATCHING ME BE TORMENTED AND ABUSED, THEN GOD, WHO IS MOST GRACIOUS SAID TO ALL THE HEAVENLY HOST, HE MADE IT KNOWN THAT WHEN I SPEAK GOD IS SPEAKING AND I SPOKE THE FATE OF THE ONE WHO PICKED ME UP. HE WAS ALLOWED TO DIE.i SAW THE SPIRIT AND WATCHED HIM DIE. I FELT NEITHER GOOD NOR BAD, JUST EXTREME CURIOSITY, AS THE HOLY SPIRIT, HOVERED OVER THE DEAD DEMON. NO ONE IN THE REALM UNSEEN BY HUMAN EYES DOUBTS THAT WHAT HAPPENED WAS ABSOLUTELY BEYOND ALL DOUBT, HE SPOKE THRU ME. He does not care if humans believe it, because my functions are beyond human comprehension .Jesus took over see the caps locked. Thats him.
Look, Friends, i did not tell you what happened when i gave notice of my intent to leave this house and go back to thurston county, to my beloved Jeanette Valencia owner of an adult family home that i lived in. when i made it known, the next thing i know the owner, grabbed me by the hand and said :Please don't leave us Tina, we really like you here" say what??? this is the same guy you can hear making me cry on my you tube video that i posted to prove he was being abusive, and now, that he knows i have a way out is begging me to stay?? I was freakin shocked. Wow, and since then have had no trouble.AND THE WORST THING IS, THAT PEOPLE DO NOT BELIEVE THAT GOD HEARS US AND RESPONDS. I am not saying that if you are atheist that there is anything wrong with that, i respect most religions, Jesus really gets around, but i have never said i did not hate the muslim faith because i damn do.Muslims do not practice forgiveness, it makes it hard to deal with them let alone the fact that the men demean women. We are as nothing in their eyes.I know because i was married to and had 3 kids with him, and to this day, he hates me, and so do the kids. I just have to wright them all off, no point crying over people who dont want me, at this point i would like to speak to my son devon, he is my baby and at 17 he is autistic and he wants me, he told me so. I tried to contact him through my sisters widower, but i have had no response. i guess i will have to live with the fact that even as we speak they are all saying i am bad don't call her. i get the feeling that he does not believe them and i know why. i protected his lungs from my ignorant mom, by putting up a blanket between the room he had to sit in and her incessant second hand smoking, in the kitchen, and for a year i never did anything that he could see was wrong. He will not believe them and so i wait.
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I personally must heartily agree with these statements. not because anyone told me , but because i lived it. Homeless and destitue, these jws did not want me to eat at the soup kitchen or at the big sunday dinner at the first baptist church. They did not want me to recieve clothing from the christian mission. they did not want me to attend thursday night street reach for medications bedding, clothes food and a bible sermon and prayer. JW's did not want me to sleep in the shelters in winter because all of the shelters were inside churches including the catholic church. BUT THE JEHOVAH'S WITNESSES WOULD NOT FEED ME, CLOTHE ME, OR ALLOW ME TO PARTICIPATE AT MEETINGS AND DISFELLOWSHIPPED ME, BECAUSE I PARTAKE OF THE EMBLEMS, THEY WERE RUDE TO ME, TREATED ME LIKE THE COMMON VIOLENT CRIMINAL THAT THEY THINK I AM BECAUSE THEY BELIEVE THE SECULAR AUTHORITIES WHO CONVICTED ME FOR A VIOLENT FELONY THAT WAS ONLY 45 DAYS IN JAIL AS A SENTANCE BUT TURNED INTO 5 YEARS IN PRISON, BECAUSE MY JW HATING HUSBAND WOULD KIDNAP ME, RAPE ME, DRUG ME, THEN CALL MY PROBATION OFFICER AND TELL HER I DID NOT COME IN BECAUSE I WAS HIGH AND THEN BEAT ME VICIOUSLY CHOKE ME TO NEAR UNCONCIOUSNESS FOR BEING A JW. I HATE TWTBTS, ONLY REAL CHRISTIANS HELPED ME.
listen, you must keep a lid on what you know, continue on as if you never said anything, research while you "hide" i knew for a long time, but I had to wait because i became a victim and spent many years in and out of prison for a crime i did not commit, during that time i was unable to tell anyone, no way to contact my beloved congregation, when finally i came out i was homeless, but i made the meetings sporadically, they knew i lived outside in squalor, and i found out that they had been gossiping about me. no one would help me, because of course, i could not attend meetings for so long, i was looked down on and even run out of the memorial because they knew i was gonna partake, i have done so since 1987. well i was forced to sleep in shelters in winter because of the snow, i was forced to go into churches, because the Jw's would not help me , and what i saw and heard and felt were people who were feeding me because of Jesus, everyone knew the name of Jehovah and sang songs to him, i partook in a catholic church because i had no where else to go{eww btw very gross} so when i was able i finally went to the meetings for three months straight and after the first meeting, i was not allowed to even read a scripture and then the elders visited me, in my home and accused me of being violent{ my crime was a violent one, never mind that i am innocent, but they believed that i should not partake and so i was dissed because i refused to stop, and i cannot be brought back in, because of my refusal.- this is the org i spent almost all my adult life in- a cult. I am 53 and still The bride of Christ.- I partake at home and still use jw.org, and i read chapter 34 of Ezekiel and encourage all ex-jws to read it for God knew what was gonna happen back then and in the future, God was with me, and still is, otherwise i would be dead, i have died doa on 5 occaisions, and knew that God would raise me up again and again, for His Glory, not mine.Hallelujah- song of solomon 8:6- my left hand tattoo-Jah His name on my skin, no one can strip him off of me.I am never alone and jesus speaks for me, even now, because i got to the point i cold no longer live or speak to humans after what the world was allowed to do to me, worthless, homeless naked and in despair, sleeping and crying in blood and feces and urine and squalid conditions, he picked me up, and began ministering to me, and continues even now until forever, my King holds me Dear my beloved beloved is always here, the shadow on the back of my right hand.Take my advice try to fade slowly it is the best thing to do.
I live in a group home, and i pay 3,177 for the priviledge of being neglected and abused, and the food i have absolutely no say in the matter. this is what happens when you are injured and have to try to live with it. I am on oxygen and i have a motorized wheelchair and all the homes are like this. they expect me to walk to the toilet, in the day time. I am in pain and they are just fucking lazy bastards who do this for the money. I keepasking god to let the 95 year old man to die, they leave him in bed, and he cannot see or hear berywell so he talks to none begging for help constantly, i told them i cannot handle that because i myself am a caregiver, and he keps begging please someone help me, my legs hurt and etc... , whatever you do, dont wind up here i am 53 years old and all the homes are like this. trust me, i was a ray of hope when i gave care, but once you are in a wheelchair, no one understands , everyone treats you as if your mentally retarded, these fuckers are fuckin lazy. they dont ant to clean my bedside commode, and the toilet keeps getting stopped up and i have to sit there and plunge it till it is gone, because i dont use a lot of paper, but they think i do, 4 squares is too much. Fuck them.you cannot demand anything or they simply give you a thirty day notice and get meaner while you wait a year to find another home that treats you exactly the same brutally honest, i used to work in the homes and they all treat you like a retard and if you call police they think your mental, which btw is exactly why i am here it is not the oxygen, it is not the Multiple scherosis, it is not the wheelchair, it is becuase i am considered to mentally ill to care for myself, soo...there it is.. if you send me out the door with my meds, i will do what any person who needs care but is in so much pain they dont want to suffer anymore, i would take all of my meds and try to hide somewhere to die so that they dont catch me, and that is with knowing for a fact that God and his son are taking care of me, god wont let me die, damnit,and i promised him i wont do it again...so there it is.
