I am afraid today

ako mahadlok sa anna siya ginatasak-tasak sa iyang mga tiil, ug miabut kanako sa pag-ingon "unsa man ang imong gusto karon? Gigi wala makadungog sa iyang tungod kay siya nag-ingon ako kinahanglan sayop, apan dili ako. pagbuhat kamo audio ug video sa sulod ug sa gawas? kon mao nga palihug reveiw sa imong mga teyp ...

king of kings

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qfK4l0Ezyg0

FILTHY LYING MUSLIM BASTARDS...

ALL, I MEAN ALL- MUSLIMS LIE> THEY ALL BRUTALIZE WOMEN AND CHILDREN..THEY TURN YOUNG BOYS INTO DANCING TOYS AND FUCK THEM AND THEN THROW THEM OFF THE ROOF...LIES ...TO CONFUSE INFIDELS INTO TRUSTING THEM. THEY KNOW ABOUT THE OBVIOUS BEGINNING OF JIHAD AND THEY FUCKING APPROVE, AND HERE ...THEY HAVE SAID THESE THINGS TO CONVINCE INFIDELS TO TRUST THEM...I AM NOT FOOLED BY THEIR WORDS >>>NOT AT ALL >>>AND JESUS CHRIST... IS WITH ME HERE, AND NOW Q!......AND VERY, VERY ,SOON ..THESE DOGS WILL MEET MY GOD, FOR MY GOD JEHOVAH IS A REVEALER OF SECRETS, AND I KNOW ALL...I AM GLAD I AM NOT YOU...YOU FILTHY DIRTY STINKING LIARS! FOR THAT IS WHAT YOU ALL ARE...MY NAME IS IJAH, AND JEHOVAH IS GOING TO STOP YOU FROM KILLING ME AGAIN...AGAIN..

letter i sent to ask a dr...

last year, i was homeless. I use an oversized old wheelchair. i used the Intercity transit bus in Olympia wa. The driver strapped down my wheelchair, but neglected to ask if i wanted a seat belt{ it is mandatory to ask even on the regular bus here} some driver in front of the bus, caused the driver to stomp on the brakes{I think we were doing 30 mph but not sure...all i knew was that in an instant...i was airborne..somehow i slammed into the right wheelwell, and wound up near the change machine, flat on my back and my dress flew up...i was not wearing a diaper like i normally do, so i was nude, no one even tried to pull my skirt down, not the driver nor any passenger...this incident was captured on audio and video. They have been using it, as a training video...how embarrassing, but that's not all,april the 28 2017...i was on the dial a lift in a new chair, there was an elderly lady behind me in a wheelchair strapped to the floor.  I had a housemate named Big Eddie, with me...I was talking to him and not paying attention to the driver.We proceeded to take off, and while we w2er talking, all of a sudden ,I flew over backwards, my body landed on the frail lady in a wheelchair behind me, i started to panic because i had the seatbelt and the shoulder belt on because i did not want to get hurt, because of last year ! The driver seemed to be nowhere"I think he was on the phone, I asked eddie{I think to help me{I had trouble breathing and was scared, Big eddie pulled me back up to a sitting position and thats when i discovered that the front end of the wheelchair was not strapped down AT ALL...I started crying and screaming OH NO I cannot go to the hospital, they will hurt me and wont take care of me, only my personal dr can medicate me, no do not take me to the hospital neither one, not the st petes and not the capital....they both tried to kill me..but the emt I think mhis name was friekas or something, he calmed me down, i told him about the fact that i was framed for a crime by the mental health guy named MICHAEL at st petes, and that they tried to kill me by refusing to admit me or help me when i left against the drs wishes, with no meds, and no Oxygen...for four days i was suffocating and when i finally made it to sea mar clinic, i was near death, and i knew it...my satscores alarmed the dr, she called 911, I said"why did you call 911, I told you i have tried for three days at both hospitals to get readmitted{ I had been living for 4 months in st petes due to the fact that i was brutalized at the robin's nest{ an adult family home} that i lived in after i left Jeanette valencia's afh the trinity house in tumwater wa.{ I told the dr, if he sent me back to that home i was gonna KIll the owner, because he was harassing  me for many months and i was being sexually molested by their employee, a fillipino named Alex, so i spent my time away from their house but i could not take it anymore and no one believed me....i had to be admitted to a regular room on the fifth floor, but i accidently recorded an argument with a dr and nurse about the food, and they heard it, i told them i would erase it but because i had a restraining order against me years earlier{i used the alford plea to the charge of battery on one dr and 4 nurses{i had to because i would never have gotten out of western state if i did not plead guilty to the charge, because they conveniantly lost the camera footage, my husband plead guilty because they say he beat up 14 people...and they said i had amphetamines in me...}...They did not try  very hard to stop me from leaving and I was on morphine and clonopin and many other drugs including being an insulin diabetic, unable to breath without Oxygen i weighed near 400 lbs and my lungs are damaged due to Pnumonia from a suicide attempt  , anyway it is very complicated but if i recorded the story, it would help me to tell it...I want to sue the bus for negligence those videos exist...i have nothing to hide! st petes tried to kill me, but when i told the dr, they wont take me back in, she said and I quote: OH YESS THEY WILL...THAT'S UNETHICAL...and they did readmit me because another dr who is my friend, for four months i was there, his name i think was also michael, he knew i was himeless, and he knew i was in need and he and the nurse terry were worried about me because they knew i could die...he was in the er this time, he is an ARNP, but works now in the ER, but this was about 2 years ago, i want people to know i was innocent but only my criminal husband saw the dr HIT ME IN THE HEAD and then they lost the footage of the camera on the wall and they FRAMED ME,,thats why i was terrified, but Mr Valencia told me go to the er, so i had to go...and eddie was with me, they did a cat scan and said i was clear to leave...i was in pain but when he asked me on a scale what is your pain...i lied i said it was a seven....i just wanted to get out of there, because they will not do anything for me and they would say so in front of eddie and he had to stay with me because i was gonna go to the food bank with him, but instead, he had to saty with me, or else he would get lost. I wondered at the fact that they said the lady behind me was ok, i weigh 340 lbs, how did she not get hurt? they did not call her cargiver{ she may be injured badly due to the fact that i have an IV pole on my chair, the emt frietas yeah frietas kept me calm and was so nice, i was so grateful for his help...i was screaming in the cat scan room, but did not tell dr Penner because i KNOW FULL WELL THAT HE WOULD NOT EVEN GIVE ME A TYLENOL, AND FAITH{etvcarehomes arnp who comes to the house does not do emergency medical help, i called her and left a message crying} I have to pretend that i am ok, or else the etv will send me to the er....and i would rather die than  go there ever again.....i killed myself dec 26 2016 i was homeless in my wheelchair and i could not get in the shelter, i ws gonna freeze to death, so i od'd on my perscription pain meds, I was doa, and when i came to, my left leg and right arm were in agonizing pain, i now have foot drop...but no longer require oxygen, that was a miricle, but i stayed for a month, KNOWING THAT NO ADULT FAMILY HOME NOR NURSING HOME WILL TAKE ME IN DUE THE THE FACT THAT I AM A CONVICTED VIOLENT FELON...AND I AM INNOCENT OF ALL THE LIES WRITTEN ABOUT ME FROM A STRING OF GROUP HOMES AND MY OWN MOTHER VICIOUSLY BEAT ME TOO...MR valecia, and his wife jeanette believe me because they saved me, because i lived in her house before and left on good terms because i wanted to go to town and dial a lift was not available then nor now, when jeantte heard of my plight she came to the capital hospital and she was holding my hand when i woke up from a nap, and she said tina, i am going to give you a home, and a life. so here i am telling you these things and i am near crying again..someone needs to do something about the bus, because i want money to clear my name otherwise, i can never get good medical treatemt, I am in agony screaming inside my head" Please god, let me die but i am not allowed to think that so now I want to live for Jeanette my friend, who owns 5 group homes and eddie her husband has two, and it is worth over a million dollars, and i do have a home, but i have a miserable life because they cannot help me get better treatment, no one can....they do try though so i smile and try not to scream or cry....and my files from st petes will confirm all i say irrefutably. thank you

WTF

Matthew 12:18 “Look! My servant+ whom I chose, my beloved, whom I have* approved!+ I will put my spirit upon him,+ and what justice is he will make clear to the nations.....ATTENTION FRIENDS....Do you think my daughter will be sorry she unfriended me when she finds out how much money i am getting for the negligent driver who forgot to strap down my wheelchair two days ago and now intercity transit will have to pay me for this is the second time they did not strap me down...friends last year they did not offer me a seatbelt and i am in a video that they are using for training, i know because all the dial a lift drivers have seen it...i could not use my left arm for six months and i was homeless in my wheelchair , unable to get help and only a blind man helped me, but he had an ulterior motive, he used me abused me and tried to break my neck...good thing the GOOD MORMON BROTHER Roxy Onieto,CAUGHT HIM DOING IT.....but somehow, Mel libby{ The blind guy who took me in, made Roxy believe that i was the cause and he had to defend himself ! REALLY oh really? This 6 foot two, 230 lb man had me in my RENTED and paid for room, backed up against the desk in my wheelchair in a choke hold, and i had a kitchen serated knife at his back...Roxy yelled" hey you -Let her go".....AKWARD .... now why would roxy think i did something bad that MADE HIM DO IT...well, he probably knows THAT THE DEVIL MADE HIM DO IT, after all..HE IS A HELL"s angel{self professed} but i know he is...because my husband was really an independant, BUT HE DID KNOW REAL Hell's angels and so i do know this mel is also a WRESTLER...I told him one day, that he should remember that i cook for him....the water that comes from the faucet is contaminated oh and hey I bathed in these motherfucking bugs and i did not enjoy the screaming bleeding and being beaten and held hostage, having 911 calls intercepted, being pushed and shoved and thrown out in the freezing rain and locked out on my ass, not able to rise{ I could not get up and he knew it! He threw me to the ground and kicked me, and basically BRUTALIZED ME AND MADE ME BLEED EVERYDAY, AND TOOK MY MONEY AND FUUUUUUUUUUUUUCKKKKK... HE TOLD EVERYONE WHO WAS ANY WHERE NEAR ME THAT IT WAS ALL MY FAULT, EVEN WHEN HE FINALLY GOT CITED.....THIS FUCKHEAD HAD GIVEN SPACE TO METH COOKS...I WAS AGAIN POISONED WITH METH AND CAUGHT BY THE COPS, THEY DID NOT ARREST ME, FOR THE DRUGS THEY FOUND....BECAUSE I TOLD THEM I AM ALLOWED TO PLAY WITH IT NOT DO IT... MEL LIBBY DID ALL THIS TO ME BECAUSE HE HAS TWO WARRANTS FOR HIS ARREST FOR DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AGAINST 2 OTHER WOMEN... And i being a vulnerable adult was captured by him because i was homeless and could not get help because i could not push my wheelchair around...because of the fucking bus...and the evidence is IRREFUTABLE...AND THE BUS KNOWS IT, THE COPS KNOW IT, AND MEL KNOWS IT, AND ROXY IS GONNA KNOW IT, BECAUSE I AM GOING TO SUE...I really do not need a lawyer because i have a claim that is IRrefutable, and on video with audio...the drivers did not strap me down and did not offer to strap me down, the first time..have you ever seen a 350 lb woman flying through the air?? well you will because i am going to procure that video, I WARN YOU THOUGH I WAS NOT WEARING UNDERWEAR OR A DIAPER..I WONDER IF THEY BLURRED THAT PART OUT, BECAUSE NO ONE NOT THE DRIVER NOT THE EMTS NOR ANY PASSENGER[ AND THERE WERE MANY]... TRIED TO COVER ME UP AND I WAS SCREAMING OBSCENITIES BECAUSE THE FUCKING EMTS KEPT KICKING MY LEFT INJURED ARM, THEY EVEN NAGGED ME ABOUT USING THE WORDS 'FUCKING QUIT KICKING MY FUCKING ARM'...YES ....THE BRIDE SPEAKS SUCH WORDS BECAUSE SHE HAS BEEN BRUTALIZED BY EVERY MAN AND MANY WOMEN ALL OF MY FUCKED UP FUCKING LIFE...because every bus driver has seen it and discussed it with me for the last three months...i could not pursue anything because i was homeless and distracted by mels torture of me, but now JUSTICE HAS COME TO FUCKING TOWN FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY ENTIRE TORN UP ABUSED fucked up fucking life, now why, why ?????.I am sent outside the camp, but when i returned the camp- IT WAS DESECRATED! MY friends were dead and the kingdom hall was desecrated...

1.

to divest of sacred or hallowed character or office.

2.

to divert from a sacred to a profane use or purpose.

3.

to treat with sacrilege; profane.......................................FUUUUUUCKKKK....WHAT TO DO? What the fuck to do?What the fuuuuck to dooo?????????every time i approached my hall, i was rejected, thrown out ,stomped on and eventually ...disfellowshipped for partaking HOLY CRAP>>>>What to do, what to do?????...CONTINUE ONWARD TO THE PANTING END.....with...http://www.mayoclinic.org/diseases-conditions/giardia-infection/basics/definition/con-20024686

shunned again

i keep a record of all that i have suffered and the JW elders used it against me when i said i have no human Father...And do not call anyone on earth 'father,' for you have one Father, and he is in heaven. Am i hard to understand? I am Autistic and i have feelings{most aspergers do not} I am sensitive and the words people use on me can make me suicidal, the worst one is to call me a liar. I am not lying, i speak truth...today my daughter told me that since i do not read or speak arabic that i cannot read the koran...I am sorry but someone who does speak arabic taught me the koran...my first husband is Iranian....he needed a green card so he tricked me and said he loved me.... he hates americans... but this american saved his worthless musllim hide, and he practiced sharia law on me, for eight years he beat me...Jehovah's witnesses called me a liar when i told the elders, they screamed at me spit in my face and trhrew me out of the memorial because they knew i would partake, i was not in good standing, because i was in and out of prison,for 5 long years and being kidnapped by my husband david monte porter. a self professed hells angel , a white supremist ,a a very good meth cook... they did unspeakable things to me, and were trying to kill me, and they succeeded, I died about 9 times so far....The God of All Comfort
…4who comforts us in all our troubles, so that we can comfort those in any trouble with the comfort we ourselves have received from God. 5For just as the sufferings of Christ overflow tous, so also through Christ our comfortoverflows. 6If we are afflicted, it is for your comfort and salvation; if we are comforted, it is for your comfort, which accomplishes in you patient endurance of the same sufferings we experience.…

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Cross References

Romans 8:17
And if we are children, then we are heirs: heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ--if indeed we suffer with Him, so that we may also be glorified with Him.
2 Corinthians 4:10
We always carry around in our body the death of Jesus, so that the life of Jesus may also be revealed in our body.
Philippians 3:10
I want to know Christ and the power of His resurrection and the fellowship of His sufferings, being conformed to Him in His death,
Colossians 1:24
Now I rejoice in my sufferings for you, and I fill up in my flesh what is lacking in regard to Christ's afflictions for the sake of His body, which is the church.
2 Timothy 3:11
my persecutions, and the sufferings that came upon me in Antioch, Iconium, and Lystra. What persecutions I endured! Yet the Lord rescued me from all of them.
1 Peter 4:13
But rejoice that you share in the sufferings of Christ, so that you may be overjoyed at the revelation of His glory.

Shunned again...

I am used to being shunned for being A JEHOVAH'S WITNESS BY My children

, and i am still Jehovah's witness, but a real one and i am used to not having any family because of what the WTBTS made me into, a judgemental ass-wipe, but what i am not used to is being loved by you...thank you, i needed your virtual hugs.. I ,as an exJW, you really are my only friends because one must be exjw to understand a jw, or an exjw...that is what i know, but one thing i cannot stand is to hear that the name of Jehovah is not God's real name because he saved me from the demons and i knew them first...i searched for god whole souled, and it was and is all i cared for.....Muslims have demons, they lie, steal cheat,, and hate all white people...as the bride of the christ which is also something no one understands about unless you are one...i know that is upsetting to most people because no one can believe me, not even jws or exjws...i truly am alone in this physical world that i see, but sometimes i am transported to different places where i can see the angels the demons and even god with no face, jesus with no face in all light and no darkness, and NOONE can or will ever believe that right now and i understand why, but i always judge aright...i always say forgive them lord they KNOW NOT WHAT THEY DO.....EVEN WHEN THEY ARE KILLING ME...I CANNOT KILL ANYONE, UNLESS I DO IT FOR SOMEONE WHO IS BEING KILLED AND I WOULD GIVE MY LIFE FOR ANYONE, EVEN THE UNDESERVED LIKE ME...