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As a matter of fact, i know it for sure, he wont let me die, he wants me to stop trying to do that- it is the last accusation against me that satan has made, and God knows me well, He will always help me stop this time before i do it, because he knows i will do it. I think Jesus is is so tenderly compassionate. His words are always right on time, when he knows i cannot take anymore he moves me, i fall and cannot do anything, he makes me rise. i am like a car with no driver, having lost the ability to want to live,he must use his power to cuse me to do what must be done, because he knows i cannot i do not even speak much, but with him, no verbal words are needed, he knows i know he is right here beside me i do time to time aknowledge his presence, and when i do its crazy, i start smiling laughing my pain goes away and then once in a while God himself comes in to a threeway converstaion, and he makes jesus laugh, and i cannot stop loving them more and more, my Love fills all of the empty spaces everywhere, and occupies everyspace everywhere, and Jehovah runs the show, by pretending that He is just watching when really without him, we would die. if any choose any thing else above him they cannot live very long, he does not force anone to live he regrets their choice to die, but what can this beautiful gentle god do, but offer life and regrettbly they choose death, he will do whatever he can to make that not be, but ultimaetly it is our decision. they choose wrong because satan makes them think that he does not exist, or better that being evil is fun.