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I have had an Epiphany-The reason that the WTBTS made it a rule that doing drugs of any kind not prescribed by a dr. can get you disfellowshipped. Here is where i begin to explain what an awful rule that is, Look , I had extreme Pain and because of a set of personal dire circumstances, I could not ,absolutely- could not ,ask for help from any hospital, so, i respected the rule and refused to do street drugs for any reason. my husband kept telling me this- you have done many drugs before, you know they could give you relief, so have some, i continued in so much pain, sleep eluded me, the pain constant I was a pitiful nagging crying mess, finally he hit me, and forced me to smoke some marijuana. I felt better instantly and i laughed and had fun, so here is what I believe- satan wants us in pain, because people in pain, will do anything to make it stop, and if they cannot fix it, they either kill themselves or become very mean, i know i went there both ways, so the witnesses have no problem with -holding that which could heal our broken hearts, give us back our loved ones, it really is a tool of satan to cause pain and loss of loved ones, dont believe me? Read job again, and then tell me, who do Jehovah's witnesses resemble most Job, Jobs loved ones, jobs friends, or god? if you do not say god or Job, then they are evil, and you know what job had to do to be released? That's right. Do not forget where you came from, because where we are going is not much fun, but in the end, no more evil and pain. anyone who tells you that doing drugs when you are sick and cannot get them legally should freakin have to walk a mile in your shoes, mine were sandals and my feet had open weeping wounds on the bottoms and i could barely walk but was being sent by satan through probation, to walk from one city to another and back even though she had plenty of bus passes to give out-I knew Satan would do that, why is it, we cannot see it as witnesses but as ex witnesses, because they started teaching something that real witnesses, the ones being chucked out, we can see through the fog.