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i am an accapella singer and song writer i sing my melodies but i do not write music i do not know how and my instrument{ my voice}cannot be duplicated and my songs are free this is old from karaoke days, these days i sing creed freddie mercury, barbra streisand was teaching me to sing and i started performing at 4 years old i sang at my moms second wedding my sister, she cannot carry a tune and she is not as beautiful as me and the reason she was so extremely jealous of me, that is why she hated me she could have been nice to me, and i could have taught her, but some people you just cannot get to i could never reach her and my mother dumped me again, well she told me not to contact my son and lied to me, that she was done with him and was not gonna see him anymore, so i called and he was rude, and slammed the phone down, then when i called her again she knew because she lied. i needed to know, you cannot force someone to love you, you cannot buy it either, they have no affection for me or each other, but i have you, my exdub friends, whom i love respect and knowing how fragile we all are at first i was too, loads of crying, but i am set free, they are not hurting me anymore, god fixed the home here too, and now, i am singing and sitting up straight and starting to do art again, because of Gods great love and compassion for me, a tiny creature who was so frightened and ignorant, his daughter, so fragile and yet so powerful. thank you all, i will sing again. third day