aug 24 17

I cannot communicate well sometimes not at all. I found a way to be heard...with God's gifts of holy spirit fruits i was able to go on until the time and season called for drastic measures and again my God proved worthy of my trust as i became able to walk talk and move and come back from the grave and now i am even more amazed when i remember how i was as this girl here...{ Austism }.Today, i am finally back on track and I am Loved. Eddie and Jeanette Valencia, have given me everything i have never had,today i have a leg brace, new shoes, i swim 3 times a week{well practicing walking and trying to learn how to manipulate my foot, so i can swim and not be afraid}...but the one thing I had to have >was LOVE,  and Jesus made it possible.My mom is now Jeanette, my dad is Eddie, and i live in a wonderful garden atop a hill. we have peach trees and we have cherry trees, and our caregivers are also my family, i tell them i love them and they tell me that they love me. I saw a praying mantis in our backyard and i saw the quail with 20 babies,i see eagles and feed rabbits and 4 deer, and well coyote i want to redirect away, all the neighbors have tall fences, but five acres keeps us private, and every day i thank Jehovah my God for it all...and Jesus i also thank, one thing is for sure,i don't mind being different. I only ever minded when people took advantage of my condition, i knew they were doing it...i knew it, i just could not say to them i knew it..like a watcher at the window, i allowed them to slaughter me in every way...do you think my mom who tried to kill me, would like to know i was adopted by this multi-million dollar couple who were sent by God to save me??? i am not angry or hurt anymore because God saw me through it and told me it would end....he is there for me and i hope for you too my friends. Nothing i ever owned made me happy, I Just need real love and i love all of you like that!

friday august 11

I have quit takin the lithium because i am having urgent urination , incredible thirst, no desire to swim or leave home, i cannot enjoy smoking or eating , i feel unhappy all day long and want to sleep to escape, my thoughts are all anxious,but i am unable to voice them.